With God, there was a beginning for knowing Him...but, there is no end.  God's love and mercy and forgiveness are eternal and everlasting.  His love has no beginning and has no end.  He has always been and will always be.  Who else can be that way?  Who else could ever love me with such unconditional love?  The answer is no one.  He is my Father and Jesus is my Savior. 

I can remember standing with Bill (my husband) in a strange motel room.  We were placed there for 2 weeks because we lost our home and all of our earthly possessions due to damage created during a storm.   Whatever we had left, a very evil landlord prevented us from taking...the rest she stole from us.   The Red Cross had generously given us shelter and money to buy food.  God was good.  I looked at Bill and he looked at me.  We smiled and knew what each other was thinking.  We were praising God that we had our lives and each other.  The Lord spared us from destruction.  We didn't know at that moment what would happen next, but we learned to wait on God for everything in our lives...from that day forward.  We would never have to worry again about anything because God was in control. 

All this happened one month after my discharge from the hospital after suffering heart problems, a complete breakdown, and withdrawal from prescription drug addiction.  I was now detoxed and ready to walk with Jesus the way He wanted me to.  My mind was finally clear.  No longer would I ever put myself first or do those things I wanted to do.  I was now allowing God to have the reigns on my life.  I finally realized that He had to be in control.  God had given me my final warning that I must obey;  I heeded that warning then and continue listening to Him now.  Jesus shed His blood for me and then He shed His tears.

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